Farewell

Feeling so alone, my world is craxing down! All my fault slowly I make the ones I like the most go away because of what I do and I say everyday! I love people to mutch and then I just go away! Like it or not this is me, can't change who I am, because if I change I will never be me I have reveled all my secrets to "YOU" and now I can´t look at you! Don't now why just happend whith you!

Im sory having to go away...

I LOVE YOU!

Love is in me and it doesn't go away! Always in my head even when im drunk like now! If I could be whith you I would grab you and never let you go away! Never felt nothing like this you're the guy I ever loved the most because never in my life I told and thought things like this. But you don't love me and that makes me week and fragil and the most I try to forget you the most I LOVE YOU! This is a relive to me saying this I Kepted this in me to mutch time and now I finally get the courage to say I love you! This is all I have to say....

YOU!

I hear you're name everywere

I see you're face in my head

Feeling something strong

Feeling something deep

I write about you

I cry for you

All I want is...

YOU!

I'm sick of this

If we can't be lovers

Now I see

We can't be friends!

O silêncio de um olhar...

I saw you

But you just pass me by

Ignore me

But I will not look

At the second time

Nothing...

Can't see

Can't touch

Can't feel

This is real

Always being hurt...

Im to imature, to blind, to stupid and to naive to see!
Because I let people do what ever they want with, they just don't care about my feelings, they just doesn't want to care about if im here or not, they just hurt me is like they stabs into my heart a dagger! It's a pain that kills me depper and depper...
If I coud cry all my tears would be blood and then you would se how much it hurts inside... but i don't cry I just hide from everybody on my conner on my world just me and my pain!!
I try to help oders but no one, no one cares about me... why bodder im no one!

....

Strong or weak?

Everyone is strong, weak are the those that give up of there lifes!
There is always a solution, a chance of life getting better.
Sometimes I feel so weak, but I still have hope on my future, that's why I'm still living this life of madness and crazyness.
Look inside of you're heart and you will find hope and strength inside you. And if feel that you are almost in the abysm fight for you're life, fight for you and for all that loves you.
And if you are thinking "Is easy to say and hard to do" well Im saying beacause Im doing it.

Im not crazy!

Its hard to live in this world
Because everything is hard to me
I'm always sad and alone
Because home doesn't feel like home!

When I do what I do
You call me crazy
But I do what I do
To not get crazy!

If you know what i feel
You shouldn't call me crazy
Crazy it's suicide
Crazy its my life!

Call me crazy
But if I am...
It's because I'm lost
Lost inside of me!

When your gone...

I've been thinking in you
Every day
Its not easy for me
To stay away
Because I miss you,
I miss your eyes, your lips, your smell...

You are everything to me
You're my life! <3

All the moments whith you
Are dreams
You're my whish came true
Whith out you I can't breath
You're my air, my love, my dream!

Don't go away,
Don't leave me in this dark
Cause you are my star
The star who guides me
True this crasy life!´

Come back to me...

Carlos Pereira & Vanessa Pereira

Just a cut...

A cut that takes all the pain away. I feel like true my blood coming out of my arm, that all the pain is release from inside my body. Its painless, I just feel an emptiness in me its like noting exists. But then it came the fear, of not be able to stop! I stay posessed, I cant think I just try to take the pain in me even that means hurting myself! Its a moment of madness, profound, dangerous ...

It marks you for the rest of your life!

why we do this? In desperation....

Alone...

O silêncio instala-se em mim e todos se afastam.Tudo se torna negro, sombrio um mundo só meu, sem mentiras, magoas, traições mas sobretudo sofrimento causado por pessoas futeís e insensíveis. Torna-se agoniante viver rodeada das pessoas e dos próprios amigos.
Tento disfarçar a dor mas ela invade todo o meu corpo, toda a minha alma!
A vida parece-me tão banal, sinto-me obrigada a vivê-la!!! Por vezes penso como é injusto eu ter a oportunidade de viver enquanto outros querem mas não podem! Acham isto justo? Pois eu não acho, tenho uma vida que eu não quero e nada posso fazer!
Quero fugir, isular-me, adormecer num sono profundo em que as fantasias se tornam realidade e tudo parece tão perfeito!
Ilusões são tudo ilusões...
Temos que encarar a realidade o Mundo não é nem um bocadinho perfeito e até a morte chegar temos que vivê-la!
Enjoy your life.....